I am not ready for adulthood.




Nope, nope, nope.

Wow, 2010 has not even begun, and yet it already sucks.




Way to get a jump start, next year!



Edit

Alright, look at it this way.


If you can weather the next year, there will be very few things you can't handle.

I know when I read this journal entry a year from now, I'm going to swoon with self loathing, but


I have changed. I've become much more patient in certain aspects of my life (waiting for Daniel, doing something that's tough) and a lot less patient in other aspects (other people...and myself).














SO HEY GROWING UP WHAT'S THE DEAL

Alright, immune system.



Can be done with the absolutely pointless coughing any DAMN TIME NOW



My ribs will thank you.

Well, working at the haunted house taught me a few things.

-People are not nearly as funny as they think they are.
-People will go to some pretty amazing lengths to be obnoxious.
-I never knew I could possess such intense loathing for complete strangers!
-Having wet feet for even just a couple of hours really - REALLY - sucks.







DANIEL COMES HOME SOON HOSHIT

I wrote a whole bunch of stuff, but it got erased, so here's the condensed version:

-The fact that ears are so easily messed up says that God is a cruel, cruel deity.
-I pondered about humans and their relationships with each other and how hilariously fucked up we all are, ha ha ha.
-Not only are Chuck Norris jokes older than dirt, but they are negatively contributing to the progression of the human race.
-60's nostalgia = good times for all!









MAN I AM SO WICKEDLY LAZY

Kinda depends on who it is. If it's a stranger, I'm much less likely to confront them, just because chances are it'll only start an argument and frankly, I don't need/want to be starting arguments with strangers.


But if it's someone I'm close to, I may call them out. I don't need to be hangin' with prejudice folks. Though I have gotten so prejudiced my OWN dang self lately, I don't know if I'll even do that. I'm not racist or anything, I just don't care for humans in general.










Or Vietnamese people.

I really hate how lazy I am sometimes.


Oh well, at least I'm making a little progress.




28 DAYS AND COUNTING

Man, working at this haunted house is really making me hate humanity.

1. At least twice a night - AT LEAST - I get some stupid blonde chick asking "Are you okay?" which makes the rest of her friends titter and me want to bite her on the fucking nose.

2. I also get a lot of dudes making jokes that make absolutely no amount of sense. I get the "are you okay" joke (even if it makes me want to scratch my eyes out every time I hear it), but a bathroom or rape joke? Do not get.

3. And I can't decide if this is the worst one of all, but people who are completely non-reactive annoy the hell out of me. I think I would rather hear a crummy joke than a reaction of, ":|"

4. No, I think people trying to scare me is worst.

People.

You are not going to succeed.

I hear you coming WAY before you're going to notice me.



AND MY NECK OH SWEET JESUS MY GODDAMN NECK

No, but I used to keep tabs on my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend, which I can say with every fiber of my being is terribly unhealthy.

And made me feel preeeeeeetty creepy.

Sometimes, I hate being female.



It leads me to be angry for no reason at all, at people who don't deserve it.




BUT I STILL AM LOL

So I read through my old entries and laugh at the things I got upset about, and the way I was four years ago.



Then I read my recent entries.



Things haven't made as much progress as I'd initially hoped.


I curse more.

I've figured out why I suck at friends-making.



I am waaay too easily annoyed by other folk.

Every time somebody makes a really stupid relationship decision, I have to wonder if I'm just insanely lucky, or if most of the people I know have a mild case of retardation.




On the same hand, I am shit at making friends, so maybe it's a tradeoff.

I have a new kitty! Her name is Whisky, and maybe she won't leave me out to dry.


Now to just get over this crippling self loathing.

"Never-never-never--- ALWAYS put salt in your eyes."








I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP LOL

-I don't know why, but I think I'm really, really good at pushing people away. Why can't I keep any friends for more than a few years?
-I am also really good at cussing, and very bad at NOT cussing.
-I'm in that hazy headspace again. I don't know what to do about it, or how to get out of it. Maybe it's a change of seasons kind of thing.
-I need to start doing just a little bit more with my life.
-Bleh.

Medium: Television
Fandom: True Blood
Subject: General
Title: Temptation's Strong
Warning:
-A few blue words, but nothing worse than what's on the show.
-Spoiler free!


( Making mischief in the moonlight... )

I have been sleeping a lot this summer and, as a result, I feel that any semblance of personality I had is sort of just slipping away, getting lost in the ether.

Though heaven forbid anybody brings up my boyfriend, which seems to be the only thing on my mind these days. I could chat about him for hours on end.

I feel almost non-existant, validated only by the thought of someone six hundred miles away, someone who I'm not even sure I really know anymore. Someone who is going to be easily, EASILY taken away from me for at least another year, if not more.





SUCKS

Man, I wish I could get some emotional rest.


Like take an emotional nap.

Or drink some emotional tea.

Or go emotional skinny dipping.







BLEAGRGH